I always felt a bit funny about my last blog. I tried various different tones, stylised posts, wrote through my breakup, even, and yet nothing felt like it fit me. Recently, however, I’ve been wanting to write more. I’ve been eager to find a space that fulfils what YouTube doesn’t, where I can write about ~adult things~ like the industry I work in, how to work through the constant pit of despair that haunts you after you graduate, how to navigate being a woman when you’re forty sessions of therapy deep and still crying when you see a dog video on Facebook. (Facebook, by the way, is a whole other subject worth tackling in another post – why do we still use it??) So yeah, I’m here to find my voice, make more space for my thoughts (as if there wasn’t enough already) and explore deeper topics that won’t necessarily fit in a video format. I’m here to start blogging again.
No one tells you that starting a WordPress blog is the hardest thing in the world. I’m generally good with technology; I was always the one nominated to switch the router on and off again when the internet stopped working. Launching a blog, however, is a whole other board game. The past week has seen me desperately try to work out the merit of host servers and how to reroute my domain, alongside the most important priority of making my blog look pretty. It’s been a labor of love, let me tell you. I kind of suspect this has been placed by the powers that be as a moral challenge, to reaffirm my commitment to adding another dimension to my online presence. And you know what? I think it’s made me even more sure that I’m ready. I’m here to be challenged, so bring it on, confusing-lexicon-that-I-have-yet-to-learn-and-understand.
What can you expect to find on my new blog? Hopefully it will give you some more insight into what it’s like to have, according to six to seventeen year-olds, the most desirable job in the world. Spoiler: once you’re old enough to see your career path as a multifaceted entity, the label “vlogger” starts to look a little less shiny. I love my job to pieces but like with any career, there’s a lot that goes on under the bonnet that is definitely worth discussing. This will become a space for me to write about finding my feet in adulthood, and on top of that, womanhood; the things I’m thinking about (make that “worrying about”), from the disparaging lack of cruelty free eyeliners to the shitload of Imposter Syndrome I experience, to the geopolitical crises of this decade and how to navigate them as a twentysomething. Just writing that sentence made me realise that yeah, I’ve got a lot to get off my chest. Get ready for that.
So here it is. I made a blog. My second blog.* I really hope you enjoy reading some of my lesser-documented thoughts and coming along this ridiculous journey from MSN Messenger to Slack communications over coffee with me.
And if you weren’t aware, I also have a podcast where two of my pals and I discuss books about sex and gender and a YouTube channel full of videos of my face. I did warn you I had a pretty substantial internet presence.
* Adding an asterisk is how we would signify a correction in the MSN Messenger days. I still do this. You’ll get used to it soon.